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Works by one of my favourite digital artists, who’s also my friend. Kindly check him out!

https://instagram.com/rioviano_2nd?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=

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Another heart breaking night in December

A December where I heard that she got a lover

A lover that’s definitely not me.

He’s probably better than me.

Oh God, are you testing me?

I wish to know of your secrets

Why you’re keeping me conscious to witness

myself not being the reason of her happiness

Do you think she is not for me?

Or is she just not for me first?

Are you keeping her for him first?

Or are you keeping me for someone else?

But as much as I yearn for The answer

and as many times I find a clue of the truth

I will still be waiting for the day you break up

The day I become the reason that you’re happy

~A poem by me, Raihan D. Purboyo

Just last night I found out my crush has a boyfriend. Posted in her story, celebrating her birthday in a fancy restaurant, the day before her actual birthday. I could only say “Happy birthday” and “congratulations on your new man!”, trying not to expose my feelings.

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From the fertile lands of the Ethiopian highlands I grew.

I was noticed by Kaldi’s goats, chew after chew.

For I have created them to something new

Nocturnal goats, running and jumping past their curfew.

Years have past

I’ve met the tongues of Africans, Arabs and Europeans

Soon, the tongues of Asians and Americans

I’ve seen beauty for how they value me, traded me, and brewed me

For every sip, I’ve made ideas and peace

I’ve calmed Beethoven to Kafka to compose their arts

And I’ve invigored Freud’s to Tito’s soul to change the future

With the touch of their hands, I’ve grown everywhere

Under the scorching rays of the star called sun, I’ve dried

Hitting the scalding heat of metal, I’ve been roasted

By the cuts of the rotary blades, I was ground

And with the essence of life, I was brewed.

~Written by me, Raihan Dhiaulhaq Purboyo. I had a GERD attack in 13 May 2022, and the doc’ said I have to reduce coffee consumption. I wrote this for I missed the taste of coffee so bad.~

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Saudade.

There is a Portuguese term, “Saudade”, meaning longing.

Not just any longing. A deep, melancholic longing.

For someone we love, or something that would never return.

Happy to reminisce the good times,

sad to realize that it will never return

It came from the Latin word “solitatem”

Meaning solitude or emptiness

Fits with the empty heart of a man in saudade.

Empty, his life with something that have left him

Empty for he can never get that fulfilling moment back.

~Written by me, Raihan Dhiaulhaq Purboyo~

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Various moodboards I made, all of which are in the order of
Ulzzangs - Food
Mosques/Islamic architecture - Military/Tactical Gear
Flight - interior design and architecture

Colors: Beige, pink, purple, blue, green

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Credits to:
Audio - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ANESV… “Minecraft” by C418 and “Nights” by Frank Ocean transition // Kian Elahi

 Footages:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mvzsa… Moonshot Full Moon on Eye of Turkish F-16’s Sniper Pod During Night Flight // Kerim UYKUN

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nN2lN… (4K) F-22 Raptor Demo Team Sunset Show | Battle Creek, MI (KBTL) // Lepp Aviation

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X5pPW… Bulgarian MiG-29 sunset flight // Military Aviation Videos

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ic75… Dust Off At Dusk - 115th Fighter Wing ANG F-16 // AIRBOYD

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qQD7H… F-14 Tomcat at sunset // Air Tales

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WS4mZ… F-16 Cockpit Video Of Super Bowl LII Flyover (2018) // Gung Ho Vids

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7LIsv… F-35 Performs First Night Flight // Lockheed Martin

https://youtu.be/Bja4cZM333s RAFALE FRENCH NAVY PILOTS - CHILLOUT 4 (FINAL) // CHASSE EMBARQUEE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3k90a… Sukhoi-30MKI Indian Air Force | Night Operations // Aviation Wall

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cXi0H… МиГ-29 Васильков ночь// MiG-29 Vasilkiv AFB night flight // Василий Хмелевский

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JX-lo… F-35B AFTERBURNER AT NIGHT !!! // spencerhughes2255

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=80smo… Sunset Tomcats (2) | F-14 Tomcat in Action [Real Footage] // CobraOneTwelve Productions

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20 Feb. 2020 - An Elegy For Qing Han

Today’s sunset had fully set

The pastel purple skies have turned black

She had left for 12 days already

I never knew who she is until I was told that she will never linger here again.

Yet an odd attachment with her made me empathize for this stranger

Her pen and brush compose distinct masterpieces no one can duplicate.

A savant of visuals, a multatuli, for she never stopped puling a tip of color from her book amidst the battles she fought.

Words of yore told me that she was, and still, an angel.

My memories with her are forged in chimera, for the truth of life seperates me from this angel.

I had yet to help her in life before departure. I had yet to be a friend.

Here I am. Delayed for an introduction for you had been called before I was ordered.

Here I am. Knowing who you are by your history.

Qing Han (20 March 1990 - 8 Feb 2020)

Rest well, Qinni. I wish I had known about you before you died.

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Life should be lived like this. You are born crying and everyone is smiling. You die smiling and everyone is crying. You lived such life, dear! 
I am crying. RIP @qinni   

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[qinni]

Wow, haven’t been on Tumblr for over 2 years now xD~ I’ve no idea if people are still following me here; migrated to other social medias by now like me xD;;. 

I didn’t really just want to leave it like this though.

I was recently diagnosed with stage 4 fibrosis sarcoma cancer, and the doc thinks I got about 1-1.5 years left. I guess I’m really here to kinda….leave my mark? These are just some of my work from the past few years I haven’t been uploading here :3

I’m more active on Twitter, Instagram and Patreon. Every bit of support helps <3. I’m not sure if I’m ever posting back here, but thank you guys so much for reading.

[raihanviteska]

I wish I had known about Qinni before her death. Seeing how wholesome and distinctly skilled she was made me wish for a time machine just to support her. May Allah give you the best heaven can.

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This Maybe Odd, But I Want A Sims Related DLC for Battlefield 4

Maybe it’s a little too late to talk about Battlefield 4 at this rate, but I often thought of Sims 4’s universe being connected to Battlefield. I often thought of a simlish speaking faction, maybe Sulani would be a good idea. Sulanese Maritime Defense Force? Cool or not? Subjective to y'all’s feelings.

Story goes like this:

Apparently the Polynesian archipelago of Sulani hides a massive amount of natural resources, a tantalizing fact for world dominators. Two countries are within thre resourceful region of Sulani, a British settler state, Royal State of West Sulani and the native state, Merdheska Republic, allied since they were allegiant to the Non Aligned Movement. With both People’s Republic of China and United States of America demanding such materials, and the countries in Sulani neutral, and both Sulanese nation not wanting to have an involvement with the business of war, both China and USA invades the archipelago, China attacking West Sulani and USA attacking Merdheska. The two Sulanese countries bolster each other’s defense and a brotherly oath to protect Sulani at all costs.